Tomorrow is the finish line, the last opportunity to fund the publication of Fallen! June 30 at midnight we discover if the total has been pledged. If not, there will be no novel.

When we creatives step off the cliff, thoughtfully design a crowdfunding presentation for Kickstarter, and then launch it, we are taking a huge step of faith.

For a follower of Christ like me, who wrote this novel to spread the gospel and to glorify God by illustrating his deep love for us, it’s an act of carrying out God’s calling on my life. Tomorrow I discover if this is the time and if this is how the Lord wants it done. Is it?

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As we crossed the halfway point of this campaign, I realized I had grown discouraged. My heart was heavy. I was nitpicking at my poor husband. I was crying. Why?

I had taken my eyes off the Lord and had turned them toward you.

The distractions:

  • Summer is a busy time. Many weren’t engaging with my blogposts.
  • Many couldn’t understand crowdfunding. No matter how often I explained, the idea still seemed impenetrable. New ideas take a while to comprehend for most of us.
  • Pledges weren’t coming in as fast as I’d hoped. Most writers and artists hope to meet the financial need for the project within a few days. It rarely happens, but we dream.

Then I sat down for my quiet time, and the Lord met me. How I needed him!

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In my heart, I knew I didn’t need to go thumbing through the Psalms and other familiar passages for encouragement. I was already studying 1 John, so I started to read through the entire letter, but the Holy Spirit nudged me to my current location in 1 John 5.

He had something to say right where I was in the letter:

“I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life. This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him” (1 John 5:13-15).

As I studied the Greek I realized the connection to the concept we had learned in Hebrews last year – boldly approaching God’s throne, because of our position in Christ:

“Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need” (Hebrews 4:14-16).

The word “confidence” in both verses springs from faith in Christ. It means we can speak frankly, confidently, and with assurance when we approach God. We can be completely honest and frank as we petition the Lord.

Why? Because of Christ.

Our high priest’s sacrifice brings us right into God’s presence. We are IN Christ, legally justified now, a member of God’s family, and thus able to find mercy and help from God at any time. God loves us! We are in his Son! He wants us to ask, so he can answer!

Encouraging words! But the Lord wasn’t done uplifting me.

As I recorded the word “confidence” into my notes, a Rend Collective song from my playlist began (video below), and the lyrics to Boldly I Approach seized my heart!

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What had begun as a time of discouragement became a time of rejoicing, handing this campaign back to the Lord, and remembering that he ever, always, and only does what is good.

Though human beings will invest in the project, the provision will come from the Lord. Boldly I approach his throne for this novel, so it can be published within a few months.

Is it the Lord’s good pleasure? Is this the time to produce what he has inspired me to write? We will find out in a few short hours.

Not my will, but your will be done, O Lord!