Relocation this time around was a test of faith of a different variety for us. God in his mercy protected us, carried us, and continues to go before us. So many prayers were answered for the sale of our house within the window needed, for our finances as we juggled two house payments, for our travel, and for our health, mine in particular. Prayers even for the howling cat we brought with us on the plane, who did not howl. Prayers for a home, for our family, for a timeline that accomplished all of this, for a church. An abundance of prayers.
So much grace! So many answered prayers in the ways we hoped and prayed.
The history behind these answers is significant. When we last faced these same circumstances, these prayers were not answered as we thought was best. We had a set idea of what would be good for us, but God’s better intention was that calamity would assail us. We judged God by his providence as circumstances launched a decades long journey away from legalism.
This time
Last time
We lost the first relocation house a quarter century ago. We faced frozen wages, collapsing economy, and one disaster after another within our family. What was best for us was to learn that we cannot earn our salvation through good works or rule-keeping. Sadly, trials were required to teach us this. It was a tough lesson, because we like keeping rules. It makes us look good, but it’s much harder to recognize our brokenness and sin while legalistic.
This time around, God showed us that, not only can he cause everything to work together for good in ways we don’t expect or desire, but he can also do so in ways we hope and pray. He alone knows what is truly good for us, and because he loves us more than our comfort, he will do what is truly best. He always does.
So here we are settling in. This time around, we have only the two of us and I have a chronic illness. Searching for a new team of doctors in an unknown city has been my focused purpose since we found out about our move back in November. The procuring of radiology reports, blood tests, records, and doctor’s notes has been a high priority for the past months. The process is still in the works.
I’ve prayed as I’ve sought these professionals, and I’ve been astounded by God’s provision of specialists who are taking my diagnosis and its care into all the places we hadn’t yet figured out in Michigan.
The people I needed to see, it turns out, are here. That’s a surprising discovery, for the Lord relocated us when we had thought we were settled in for good.
Today I’m recovering from the surgery that should have been done in Michigan in November. The doctors there missed some serious diagnoses that the doctors here saw immediately. Because I’m drafting this the week before I go “under the knife,” I don’t know yet what the Lord will bring me through as I face three different operations all at once. But, knowing his record of faithfulness in trial and in blessing, I know it will be for my good and for the good of my family, whatever it is.
Whatever it is, I say by faith before my surgery, he will work together for good.
That is an enormous lesson, and it took me almost half my life to even begin to comprehend it. Do I ever push against it? Sure, I do. I forget, and I assume I know what should happen. But God is patient, and he continues to gently teach me to trust him. Knowing what looms ahead for me, this is a lesson I want to learn.
How about you?
Isn’t it so amazing to look back and see all the places God is with us? Glad you are able to see those signposts in the midst of this journey and am thankful you have the right professionals close to you!
It really is, Annie! The Lord superintends our journey!!
We are forever learning that God knows what is best for us. He has a plan. 🙂 Enjoyed your message.
He definitely does! Thanks for commenting, Melissa!
Loved this, Melinda. I often look back in my journal and marvel over things I’ve forgotten. It gives me the chance to praise him again and remember that my current circumstance is a blessing in disguise. ♥️
Yes! So very true! Thank you for commenting, Gail!
I enjoyed reading about your journey. Yes, I think we all try to know what’s best for us without fully trusting that the Lord will take care of us. It is a continual lesson for me. Hope your surgeries go well.
Thank you! They did, and all our prayers were answered in the affirmative once again. Praise God for no complications! I’m now recovering.
Hi Melinda,
What an interesting topic, a test of faith.
It’s sure stressing to relocate; so much to organise and get rid of.
Sometimes God’s intentions for us are better then we can figure out ourselves.
I loved their lyrics (and the melody) of Building 429.
You’re right; good work and rule-keeping won’t lead ahead.
It must have been a terrible time back then where you and your family relocated from the first house.
I pray that you’ll find excellent professional doctors that can help you in your new place.
I can relate to much of what you say in this blog post.
I respect you for your honesty and openness in this blog post.
God bless!
Edna Davidsen.
Thank you for your kind words, Edna! We felt so isolated and lost during that first time, until a visiting pastor discussed hardship in a sermon and “just happened” to mention the exact kind of trial we were experiencing. That changed everything, opening our minds to consider the love and the sovereignty of God for us during that situation. This taught me the value of sharing our story in the hope of encouraging others in a similar trial. I think as Christians we can encourage others and remind them of God’s love by sharing our own stories of trial and heartache. Thanks for commenting!
You’re welcome.
I believe God lead that pastor on your way that day 🙂
Yes, it can be beneficial for others in the Christian community to share this kind of stories.
Yes, I agree completely. We sat silently in our pew, squeezing one another’s hands and trying to act “normal,” as we listened. We were new members of the community, and no one knew what we were suffering. Thank God for that man and that he listened to God’s leading that day!
God has various ways to lead us and the people around us!
Wow Malinda what a testimony
What you have so eloquently described is the inner workings of what the Holy Spirit does inside the valley of the shadow of death. It may seem cruel but down is up when it comes to matters of the heart, where He is.
Religion cannot teach you what you have discovered through your very difficult and tiring trial. Jesus taught you and His Spirit was right alongside you the whole way.
Words cost you nothing and that is all religion can offer – ‘ good works and rule-keeping ‘ is death to the believer.
I am so proud of you and your family.
Where you have been is no picnic, this is true, but because you have you and your family are not the same people for it.
I get so excited when I meet people of your character, well done soldier.
How very kind! There is so much more growth remaining. We hope and pray to receive the “well done” when we stand before Christ. We are messy, complicated people. God in his mercy saved us and carries us along on this journey toward him, and keeps us. I wouldn’t exchange the lessons we’ve learned and are learning for anything! Thank you for your encouragement, Tony.
“He loves US more than our COMFORT.”
Excellent insight. It’s good to remember that those are certainly not one in the same!
Great post!
Thanks, Elizabeth! Hard won insight! ?
A beautiful testimony to the goodness of God and to what happens when we trust Him.
Thanks, Tonya! God is good!