This is about love—the unwavering passion of the Lover of your soul.
I wrote this blog on September 7, 2011, the day after I received a heart-breaking rejection letter. I was devastated, my sense of self-worth shattered. If you’re facing struggle and heartache this Valentine’s Day, I hope this encourages you.
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“O LORD, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar…”
There are thoughts, impulses, actions, and deeds that we hide from others. We think, if only they knew me, they would find me repulsive. We often cannot even discern our own motives; we hide our intentions from ourselves. Thinking we are motivated by love, our true motivation is often to get attention or to serve ourselves. We suppose our motive is serving Christ; but really, we just want to be important or are compulsive rule-keepers or people-pleasers.
We struggle, often forgetting that the power for the work must come from Him, just as the work of our salvation and justification was completed by Him. We grab hold of a self-improvement plan, attempting to bring it about, neglecting to remember that it is the Lord who gives the desire and ability to change. Change is brought about by His grace. He is the one who is in the process of making us brand new, completing our transformation—our metamorphosis.
Peace only comes when we yield and quit hiding our true selves from the Lord. When we become transparent and honest with Him. He already knows us—He searches; He discerns. When we tell God that we cannot obey, be good, or overcome in our own strength, when we realize that our sanctification—the speed, the specifics, the results—is entirely in the Lord’s hands, not ours, we finally see ourselves as clearly as He sees us and has seen us all along. No program, method, list, or formula can bring it about; it is a work of the Holy Spirit, accomplished by Christ Himself. That’s it. He will do it.
He won’t be done until we go to be with Him. No one is complete until that day. The continual flaws and sins that beset us remind us that we need Christ every moment. Our final transformation will occur when we see Him face to face, becoming like Him completely. We are in Him now. Someday we will be like Him because we will see Him as He is. Though intimately acquainted with everything about us, nevertheless, He has loved us, even voluntarily dying for us.
That is true love—to know us thoroughly and yet to sacrifice Himself for us anyway. Rest in His love for you. It never wavers.
“…You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways” (Psalm 139:1-3 ESV).
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