Today I’m sharing one of my first posts from August 2011. I want you, my readers, to know me well as you embark on the journey of reading Refuge. My novel releases March 25! Watch the trailer! It’s a page-turning, heart-wrenching story. Every character contains pieces of me. Come with me on the journey! Monday my life story video will be broadcast.

Introducing Melinda: Blog #12

“You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me….”

As we grow older, maybe even from the time of our earliest recollections, we accumulate painful experiences. Formerly we listened to the stories of tragedy in the lives of our elders; now the stories are ours.

We live in a fallen world. This is the unfortunate truth: Satan tempted Eve; she ate; Adam ate; the human race fell. Now bad things happen to everyone, even Christians. The underlying truth, however, is that God promises to use every circumstance for good in the lives of those who love him. Nothing can touch us that he won’t use to make us more like Christ.

Nothing separates us from God’s love. Nothing.

The van was totaled in heavy traffic. A semi sideswiped the length of our vehicle, crushing through metal toward me. Defensively I hunched, cringing as I waited to be smashed. Miraculously, God spared my life. I’m alive! Now what to do? A long line of dark tragedies had preceded this one—the questioning, the hurt, the anger. The lessons learned.

So now what? This is a test.

Will I remember that he has hemmed me in and his hand is upon me? Anything that happens to me is filtered through his fingers, even the need for a vehicle and the lack of money for it. This time will I comprehend how to proceed according to his will? Or will I become angry at him and choose a path that is unwise or embittered? Unaccountably, though he spared my life, still my heart is terrified. There is a dark track record.

Will I trust my Savior? Will I focus on his goodness in every trial?

All our lives the Lord tests and tries us with tragedy, mishap, and accident. Sometimes he tests us with success, abundance, and praise—a more difficult test. Our hearts need purifying; we need to rely on him more completely. Often, we don’t understand or see ourselves clearly. Can we really believe that the Lord orchestrates even this for our good? Can we trust that he has our transformation in mind? Will we walk by faith, not by sight?

How is your latest test going?

“…Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it” (Psalm 139:5, 6 ESV).